Tried to find someone to hear me out but guess it just too late at nite, everyone gone to sleep.
Feel so gloomy, pass few raid wasn't a same old boring for me anymore, 10 man was fun, 25man was kind of fK up. Not because of wiping, its just the people in the raid. Maybe because i trying to get more involve with the raid, i started to tell people things of what they should do and telling them their mistake. Yes i not a officer, a no one, maybe someone younger than you, why take in so hard. I not scolding him just trying to tell him his mistake and he feel offended cause he is older than me and he can't take it?.
Lose my cool in one of the raid so unlike me, just felt so frustrated when i trying to get serious here and people making fun of what i trying to do, and he is like one of the officer, man! feel so disappointed in him.
The more i get more involve with the leadership in raid the more i can feel people start to feel annoy with me. OMG i guess i just not that kind of person who can lead, i am quite impressed with my current GL after how i gone thru this also quite depress with how i handle this things.

guess what lol feel really like crying. haha what a cry baby. Maybe i am treating them like something important in my life since i spending most of my time in game.

A game suppose to be make me less stress and happy to play with now making me wanan cry hahaha
Fk! dunnoe how long i gonna last, quit wow agian?
maybe leaving is a good solution.
hai!!!

http://www.anilinkz.com/eden-of-the-east/eden-of-the-east-episode-1/
feel free go watch this anime pretty interesting. hmm let c

On November 22, 2010 ten missiles strike against uninhabited areas of Japan, claiming no victims. This apparent terrorist act is referred to as "Careless Monday" and disregarded by most people. The series begins three months later, in the United States of America, a young Japanese woman named Saki Morimi is visiting Washington D.C. as part of her graduation trip. When she gets into trouble, a mysterious Japanese man, who introduces himself as Akira Takizawa, helps her through it. The man appears to have no memory and is completely naked, carrying only a gun and a cell phone charged with 8.2 billion yen in digital money.[1] The cell phone has the phrase, noblesse oblige ("nobility obligates" or "noble's obligation" in English), printed on it. While they are coming back to Japan, they learn that a new missile attack has taken place in their country.

lol a plot i found on wikipedi.. lazy to write it out since i gonna go soon
lol anyway the main thing that make me watch this anime at first was their open theme song "Falling Down" by Oasis .. while i was searching for anime to watch. It was the first time i came across japan anime using foreigner band as their song..

ENJOY!!

was raining in the morning, on my way to lrt station theres no shelter haha then i caught in the drizzle rain drop. This phrase just came into my mind

I thought the rain will wash away my gloom
But every single drop touching my face is depressing me.

Emo huh lol

then something to cheer that person

since i don't have a body, i don't feel the raindrops touching my skin
that's lonely and painful.


awww so who is better???

OMg monday bluess blezzz
It a start my new school term... weee.. Early this morning i feel so relief. maybe cause this is what i have decided haha and i able to do it woot... maybe still have some kind grief down there but yeah i guess i really am able to put down or should i say let go those sorrow things. It going to be a new start of my life april 21 2009.

i told myself man once school start everything everything that have make me feel so unhappy about going to bury deep deep into the earth hahaha or forget about it and somehow i did it. o well maybe i really have grown abit /flex /flex.

Ahh so happy to be back in school, and so nice to see my poly friend again. And they are so kind today, give me a welcome gift or something haha found me a twins in the class.. WTH ahhaha thx arh but no thx..

AHhh whatever arh!! but from now on i going to make things right, and try to get the things i broke and patch them up think it going to take awhile.
yah wish me luck people and thx to those who never give up on me /kiss /kiss lol...

Omg i like doing some stage speech bleh -.-|||

yah tml gonna be a new day a new start again!
aahh class start at 12pm hmm mean i can sleep until 10pm :P
i feel so sorry for those who going to wake up early haha
bah LETS do well in this sem
I going to beat you guys in GPA again this sem, fucking win me at last sem but heng arh i still get gpa 3.5 lalala


[not gonna check any gammer english no link sentences]

was working at 5pm today then about 5.15pm like that i think my heart suddenly become so heavy and beating quite fast all of a sudden feeling so uneasy. first thing come to my mind hmm something bad or sad things happen to those people close to me and people i love??
hmm start to sms around and call to make sure they are ok so, yah if u got some random msg dun make you think i am crazy hahA
just this bad feeling and checking you guys out..

Hmm look like everyone is good and strong cheer!!!
and those who are sad, lol one of my friend told me to face the sea and shout out say that you are the best and most unique one 3 time
the god will give you courage to face all kind of problem you facing
Omg like some idol scene i am typing here lol but well it actually work


I guess i have some heart problem bah OMG but i think this way better than i get bad news from love ones bah
Wish you all well and live happily ^.^

YES 100,000 SGD in my bank a/c before i reach the age of 27 years old grrrrrrr

yah new mmorpg getting bore of wow so i went to search in net if theres any new mmorpg coming out and i found his OMG this just make me Orgasm. HAHAH.

Nueee not game again grrrr but o well i need something to make my brain busy.....

Gonna go watch Detroit Metal City hohoho
first saw it as a anime 1 year ago now it on movie ^.^
HMm is Dragonball Evolution good?
Coming Soon <-- horror film omg WHen are my brothers gonna free to watch together
some other movie gonna watch before my holiday end Street frighter: the legend of chun-li, Last Chance Harvey, ashes of time redux(Dung che sai duk)

Today one of my close friend fly to aus..
lol i feeling like losing another closing friend again haiz... Gonna be like a lonely march holiday i going to have haizz
then when going to airport today my leg got injure when taking mrt .. take walking with one leg all the way to airport and back home.. Omg it so feaking pain... now is like one big red extra meat beside my leg haha
then i lost one my favorite bookmark when going there.. hai losing stuff here and there omg just at the start of the year, maybe i gonna lose more incoming i guess.

ARghhh suddenly feel so lonely..
then wow maybe going to lesser and lesser bah lol more and more feel like playing with myself.. its getting boring maybe i should spend more time playing with my guitar haha then play wow once awhile...

My friend tell me go get a girl la then not lonely haha i was like if i can why not but my mind still lol nvm..

then i tot those friend i have i dun really miss them (neglect them)that much when i have things to do, things to busy with when i am occupy but when i start to get free i feel uncomfortable, it like need them more haha... this make me feel kind of bad, cause only when i when i need them, then i miss them arghhh gg need to learn how to treasure moree...

AHhhh hope by the end of the year going through all this i can become a real golden cow hahaa...

Recently i being to have thought about things.. Everyone love heroes cause they did something great, something remarkable, something impressive, and mostly defeating the evils in anyway or saving people from danger or evils. People use to say hero are created from chaos.
But why this people willing to do so much to help/save/destroy/.... to become a hero or somebody, {cause they feel good after they did it, cause they know it their responsible}. well this is what i thought about why people help people (cause we feel happy/great after helping them, cause we was taught this way when we were small / cause it suppose to be this way)

What if from small i was taught to kill people and it was taught to do good to people if i kill them, then i grew up i started to kill people but i also feeling good doing something good for the world cause i know i am doing something right since i was taught this way when i was small..
have you ever taught since evils is bad why god don't want to just destroy them all and have peace in the world rather than people need to suffer,.... with the world so peaceful (everything just the same people live , have family, work for their dream then die with no regert) people will just start taking granted of this and just live and live and live go on and on not much nothing more just like this...

Have you ever thought actually those evil ones are actually the heroes, they actually bring you out of the boring world and let you learn more things, most important let you learn how to treasure things..

Just some random thought don't take it seriously.. hehe i am still a good man :)

Ahh yah haha i saw one of my friend start to smoke, i did not know you know how to smoke. The moment you took the cigarette and start smoking my heart was actually laughing, first you don't look good when you smoke secondly you already so old and you still start to smoke thats make you look so childish. Everyone is quitting smoking in this decade, and you actually start to smoke. sorry you dun suit the smoking party and smoking just making you look so uncool..

Thanks susie for intro me this two band The rescues and the perishers
Really good band..
love it

In the pass i hate my life, thinking why i ever born to this world. now i love my life, and super grateful to my parent to born me into this wonderful world, able to see, feel all kind of different things in this world... lol.....
Just realize going through the process of facing challenges and finish it would so enjoyable and interesting, use to fill with fear when i facing challenges which i do not even know why, and i always ask myself what the F am i so scare of??
But now i going to enjoy the fear of mine haaha..
OMG can't wait for tomolo with a world fill with challenges, I feel so excited about it...
AAAHH I FEEL THAT I AM ALIVE AGAIN...

lol omg i don't know w t * i writing about hahaha anyway feel so alive now something new for me to do Woooottt........

What a tough day i got.. Had a bad sore throats in the morning. The weather got bad and start to drizzling, caught in the rain a abit and got headache. The weather just torturing me the whole day, when ever i step outside of the class room, cold wind just blew passed me and caused my head to ache T.T, every steps i took the tremble from my legs to the head make it even more pain. I tired to sweat by eating / drinking hot stuff, but it make even more worst the heat just trap in my body and it like going to explode but stuck there arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....

My old school combo had visit me when i got home, fever. I quickly took a hot shower, took some panadol and try to sleep, HAHA and as usual panadol did not make me sleepy, but got my brain to be active, think quite alot awww.. Yah and lead me to blog this..

The company i applied to work part called me last week, it truth i was busy that day cause two of my brothers birthday that day so i turn down the appointment, but even i am free i guess i would also turn them down, not because i am scared, just felt so unredundant(not sure got this word or nt) to go and hope they forget about me. I found out that it's so hard to give up the leisure life i had, want to study i study want to play computer i play, want to sleep i sleep and get a good grade for study, so much freedom. But i couldn't lead this kind of life everyday, i had to move on, especially when my family working so hard to keep the family moving. I wanted to change and move on argh no one to encourage me, so i had to tell me self Don't give up no matter how busy i am i can manage it. I CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!!!

Man!!! liqi i miss you. ( I AM NOT GAY)
lose someone whom i can annoy everyday arghhhh...

ARGHHhhhh i am gonna explodeeee, hmm my forehead is wet
YES i am sweating wooottt.....
Anyway sometime i do enjoy suffering HAHAHA what a weird guy

Today went to change the pipe handle or faucet hmm not sure what it call anyway is something that control the flow of water in the pipe. That handle was loosen so yah got to change, since water still dripping even it was fastened.
Mum brought a new handle and i have a look at it. It looks easy to fix so i thought it would be easy my whole process, but think i am too naive, first time doing this.
So i off the Main water pipe faucet and fastened it to stop the water flows in to my house. Gather my tools and got to the battle ground. Loosen the nut at both end of the handle, so good so far, then i tired to took out the handle it did not even move, i was like "WTH". I applied a little more force to pull it out, it still stuck there. So i studied the joint of the pipe handle, and realize i couldn't just unscrew like this to take it out. i had to take the part off from the starting of the pipe system slowly until to the handle part. OMG!!!
The starting of the pipe was at the heater, so i have to unscrew the heater took out the heater then unscrewed the nut took out the pipe to the heater, then i could take out the handle.
lol so the next step was fixed the New handle back in and fix everything back in, Man wish my job just end there. But when i trying to fix the new handle, there this bronze color washer was attached to the pipe and stuck there (guess it was there too long that why stuck).
God but between the washer and the pipe head was a little far way for the current new handle. Lol i did not sure how much strength i had use just to move that stupid washer up until it was the correct distance, then i fix everything back. Went to loose the main water pipe and test.
Gay i saw water dripping out from the joint T.T ....
Went to off the main pipe again, take down everything start applying pipe tape/sealing tape on joints. Then i fixed everything back and loose the main water pipe. WOoot no water drip. Heheheh not a very job well done, but well at least a job done CHeer!!
Now i know why those plumber were so strong especially those working on BIG pipe.
Lol not a bad experience...

AAHhhh!!! I drank the coffee that i brew 6hr ago again...

Just got this game spore yesterday. Look quite interesting and fun.
It about creating a creature and evolve it into what ever you like, then during the evolve stage you also explore places. There different stages Cell -> Creature -> Tribe -> Civilization -> Space
Lol show you some of the creature i made.



Lol Still got some more cute creature i create haha
you can also create your own building at civilization.

some song i wanna intro..

it now 4.25am lol not yet sleep
Have a Bad headache just now ate some panadol thought can have a good sleep in the end my brain just go more active... Thought a lot and wrote a letter for someone not sure i want to send out or not, see how..
Then i start reading books to get my self to become sleepy. Read this book intro by my friend. Ender's shadow, haha read from 1 am thought can sleep like 2 am but the story just too good and i kept on reading until 4am. Thought about blog one of the part which i find it so good and so damn truth before i forget when i wake up later..
K here it goes..

"Sometime you have to commit to a fight even when you're weak. You don't wait until you know you're tougher. You make yourself tougher by whatever means you can, and then you strike by surprise, you sneak up, you backstab, you blindside, you cheat, you lie, you do whatever it take to make sure you come out on top." Brilliantly written..

This is what it look like now at outside society. Sorry no more children hiding in the parent's arm, once you are outside in society it how it look like to be, the higher you go the more of this kind of people you going to meet. I realize this when i just sec 1 that like 13 -14 years old, and i become more certain when i age 17 - 18 maybe cause i watch too much drama or my real life drama that i have watched. The world is just so ugly, to survive people can do anything, don't be surprise when you out there working next time your closer colleague become your worse enemy.

Shit playing Game whole day and exam coming near ... lol die la
i just kind of give up already haizzz....
Arrghhh cannot cannot must studyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy...


o yeah today lunch with my PTN.
During the lunch think he wants to teach us something.
He ask me to hold the cup, and ask us how heavy is the weight of the cup.
i reply around 300g lol like some weight expert.
then the other reply 200g, 300g, 400g, 500g.
Guess what!! the answer he give.
THe answer is "the longer you hold the cup the heavier it is"
then he try to relate this with relationship, then he talk about him and his wife. " he told his wife, anytime she can leave him, he dun mind. But if they got children le,cannot, the things they do must consider the children side first"
Guess i dun need to explain you guys should know bah about the meaning of the cup's weight..

Next week CRS essay writing, that my shi xue. Ahhh need to do more argument writing and reading, guess that how i am going to spend my weekend -.-|||.....

Getting more and more restless to study, with the sudden increase of my old friends appear out of no where. Got to know about what how they are doing and stuffs. Most of them had started working some even have their own company. T.T compare to me who is still studying make me feel so bad?, sian?, no motivation?, i also not sure about my feeling, maybe more to left out or too slow.
OR just feel so pressurize.
Actually not just them, my family too. I am so old already still getting pocket money from parent and school fee pay by them, feel so ashame.
Yeah you must be thinking well don't be a idiot, cause i am now still studying.
Guess i really have care too much about my pride, but i just felt so useless sometime, not filial toward them.

Yet me with my family was just too cold, does not even feel like a family. I can tell you i do not know much about them at all. Guess i am too anti-social. I trying to change and i think i am changing bit by bit. Sociable mean need to think about conversation to talk and learn more things.(+ learn how to talk rubbish)
I love the learning part but hate the thinking part for conversation that why i seldom talk to people :) over the years. Cause me not sure what to repeat when people talking to me. O well sorry to whoever trying to share things with me or wanted to share with me the joy and i can't repeat to you and enjoy with you your joys, but i am a good listener ^.^.

there some more things about bgr that i wanted to write cause my friend keep asking me i got gf or not -.- maybe write next time...

Yeah Exam coming soon hoho time to STUDY hard hard... JIA YOU EVERYONE, i will get better result than all of you be prepare :p

Staring at the screen for pass 15min, didn't know what to write but wants to write today about my COM ceremony at NUS cultural hall.

Yeah Wake up early in the morning, at 10am feel so gloomy when i thought about later need to for for the COM ceremony. Had to wear formal wear which i hate it, felt so uncomfortable which make me look like a clown haiz~!!. Even best was i had to leave house at the afternoon which was super hot, yeah of course "Sweating" like mad.

The ceremony was super boring almost slept though the whole ceremony. Even best they end the whole ceremony with this song "Because you love me" lol i almost wanted to laugh...
Well it wasn't that bad, i am able to meet some of my ITE friend.

Yah at the register counter for the ceremony to get my seat number in the hall, which i need my
IC. Then i found out it not in my wallet, i was scare for some reason, and sian. Cause if it is really lost, to make a new IC i need to pay like $50 or $100? In the end i used my student pass.
I always have this feeling that i lost things, feeling like lack of security.
The only hope i had was i left it at home.

Back home was about 9pm, first thing in my mind was to find my IC.
I search and search, think and think until i have some feel that i left it at that place
HAHA guess what where i found my ic?
It in my brother PRinter HAHAHAHA i forgot to take my ic out after that
Printer incident(my previous entry) which was pretty long go, and once again i laughing at myself -.-|||.....

k byebye good night

-.- thx W now more and more people come and see my blog awww....
Suppose to let those people i give one to see my blog O well... hai~~!!!

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Hi to who ever reading :).

Yeah i wanted to update my blog today hmm no already 2am so its yesterday. I was busy doing my java, trying to kill the java boss. And woot i finally kill it ^.^ so happy. I think most of you did not know what i talking about and i am too lazy to explain. Yeah it is already 2 am so yah!!! going to sleep soon.....

Yesterday, for the sake getting award at Tuesday Graduation ceremony for my COM. I was forced to go and shop for some formal wear, which i hate to wear.
I chose queenway since the stuff there sell quite cheap and alot of variety there.

I managed to get my black long pants and a belt. They cost me around $30 for belt and $40 for pants. Pain $70 gone...
Then one of the T-shirt caught my eye. Pretty cool, the design. So i try it out. But it cost $30 omg. Abit too expensive i thought, then the shop worker told me that it worth the price cause it Ink print then he told me why ink print T-shirt is good bla bla bla.... and in the end i brought it cause i want the T-shirt since i hardly come out and shop plus my MR W want a cute bag from them for free if i buy the T-shirt. So yeah !!!
one day $100 gone OMGGGGGG i getting more and more POORRRR, when am i going to TIO TOTO :(..

Below was the T-shirt i brought... (bad phone camera -.-)
anyway it a dirty white color T-shirt(hope its the right color i am talking about hahaha)



Yeah when i'm doing Photoshop on my second Pic, I realized i forgot how to use Photoshop ...
GG i think i really throw everything i learn in ITE back...

Man i think i am addicted to this song by queen.. let me listen to this song before i sleep
Good night!!!!!!